Doubts

Can’t nobody tell me no?’

No, no

There’s truth in rejection?

Maybe, yes

Is it me?

What is it this time?

What did I do?

Wasn’t I being sweet?

Perfect and all that you wanted

I did all that I can

Gave up my true self

Faked it

So that you would stay

I tried my best

But like everytime

You left

No reason

No message

Just like that

Is it you?

Is it me?

It is nothing

What’s in beauty?

It’s in, not for long

What’s in charm?

By the time you realize, it’s long gone

What’s in youth?

It’s a matter of time

What’s in stature?

Not greater than a dime

What’s in prestige?

It only gets to the head

What’s in position?

It’s got only ego to be fed

Surviving, not living

Saying no to something you’d kill for

Cravings you can’t control

Desire you can’t put an end to

Longing, trying too hard to resist

Yearning dying too bad to combust

Wish, wistful to be fulfilled

Aspiration strongly to be achieved

So many wants, wanting

Goals waiting

Targets raising, yet uncared

Stakes higher than ever

Yet there’s no stir, no emotion

Not a hope or answer

Not an inch of progress

Not a spur of belief

Faith is gone

Life is bleak and dark

Reason is lost

So is the purpose

What’s there to be?

What’s there to exist?

If there’s no sense in living

No chance in surviving

Don’t know why

Every day passes

Bringing another

I dream

I’m stagnant

There’s so much to be done

I want to move

I can’t

There’s more to the step

Than the charm to the eye

I want to be set free

Imprisoned in my stagnation

I want to breathe

I want to feel

Yet I don’t

Not that I can’t

But don’t know why

Never wanna be the same

I never wanna be the same

Am sick of this sickly game

Hope I’d magically lose the name

So I can escape the blame

Wish I never came

To the pit of fiery flame

I badly want to leave the fame

Of always being called the lame

Wonder I could tame the hardship and not be the same