Tag: anticipation
Transformed Smiles
She was tender
Sweet
Innocent in all beauty
Strikingly calm
Mellow
She opened her closed eyes
Remembering her past
The way she was
Preventing the ever so small smile
Trying to escape her lips
And quickly changed it
To a smirk
Before anyone noticed
In vain
I wait still
Knowing
There is no hope
I wait still
Knowing
It’s in vain
It keeps going
Don’t know why
It keeps rowing
Don’t know how
Doubts
Can’t nobody tell me no?’
No, no
There’s truth in rejection?
Maybe, yes
Mirage
Drunk in thirst
Filled with hunger
Starving with anticipation
Thirsty with questions
High on nothing
All but a mirage
Is it me?
What is it this time?
What did I do?
Wasn’t I being sweet?
Perfect and all that you wanted
I did all that I can
Gave up my true self
Faked it
So that you would stay
I tried my best
But like everytime
You left
No reason
No message
Just like that
Is it you?
Is it me?
Vanishing
Air
Sucking out of my lungs
Breath
Running short of
Vacuum
Filling every crevice
Space
Finding no space
Life
Slowly fading
Soul
Vanishing nowhere
Surviving, not living
Saying no to something you’d kill for
Cravings you can’t control
Desire you can’t put an end to
Longing, trying too hard to resist
Yearning dying too bad to combust
Wish, wistful to be fulfilled
Aspiration strongly to be achieved
So many wants, wanting
Goals waiting
Targets raising, yet uncared
Stakes higher than ever
Yet there’s no stir, no emotion
Not a hope or answer
Not an inch of progress
Not a spur of belief
Faith is gone
Life is bleak and dark
Reason is lost
So is the purpose
What’s there to be?
What’s there to exist?
If there’s no sense in living
No chance in surviving
Desperate anticipation
The anticipation is killing
I so want it
Badly
But it won’t, not yet
Patience, I say to myself
Ugh, but can I?
It’s incessant, it won’t stop
Not now, not still
I want to scream
The built up anguish
Maybe even desperation
It is desperation, I am desperate
But why won’t it happen soon
As in now, right now
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