Feathers

I feel

I feel the pain
I feel the chill
I feel my face
I feel my will
It’s just a strain
It’s just a phase
It’s just a hill
It’s just a lane

Buried

I buried them deep
Deep, deep inside
Never to bring them
Up to the surface
Ever again
Never again

I tried

I tried to be happy
I tried, trust me
I smiled
I laughed aloud
I tried, I did
I thought I numbed my pain
I turned my feelings off
I acted insane
I acted like a dork
I was goofy
I was
I grinned
I joked
At my expense
At mine, mine alone
I thought it’s true, this joy
This smile I plastered
The laughs I crackled
It hurt
It hurt to smile
It hurt to laugh
I tried, still, I did
Tears tried to make a grand entry
Saying
They were my only truest mates
Without any falseness
I could cry
Cry aloud
But afraid I was
My fear
Tears were indeed my truest pals
They were original and pure
Yet I tried
To smile
For I almost mastered
The art
Didn’t I?

Lost key

Staying alive

Her escape

Empty

I hate you pain

I hate you with passion

Drenched in the rain

I cried and I shouted

The pain subsided

The scars stayed

The pain stings

The scars remind

Kill me

Kill me

Now

At once

Make it fast

I can’t wait

I can’t

Collecting Pieces

I picked up

Each piece I found

On the way

And sat down

To mend it

From the beginning