Decisions

Decisions, decisions
Not easy
Time’s ticking
The walls are closing in
I’m still contemplating
Decisions, decisions
There’s no time
Not anymore

Confused

Why is everything so confusing?
Why does everything not seem right?
I’ve done this a million times
I’ve seen this already

No not now

I don’t fear

But I can’t

I’m not afraid

But it’s hard

I won’t

Not now

Too soon

I will

When it’s time

Then it’s mine

Inner rant

I don’t know what is right

Or the right way to do

I don’t want a fight

Don’t want to woo

All I want is to smile

To be a little happy inside

Been waiting for a while

Searching far and wide

Should I?

Should I forgive you?

Should I forgive myself?

Should I forget?

Should I remember and learn?

Should I move on?

Should I stay and conquer?

Should I win?

Should I defeat?

Desperate anticipation

The anticipation is killing

I so want it

Badly

But it won’t, not yet

Patience, I say to myself

Ugh, but can I?

It’s incessant, it won’t stop

Not now, not still

I want to scream

The built up anguish

Maybe even desperation

It is desperation, I am desperate

But why won’t it happen soon

As in now, right now

Don’t know why

Every day passes

Bringing another

I dream

I’m stagnant

There’s so much to be done

I want to move

I can’t

There’s more to the step

Than the charm to the eye

I want to be set free

Imprisoned in my stagnation

I want to breathe

I want to feel

Yet I don’t

Not that I can’t

But don’t know why

Hold my hand

Hold my hand, tight and firm

Right now,this is the place I feel home

Worries aside,doubts forgotten

Am happy at the present,that’s all matters

The future has no promises

But why bother now?

The day is young and so are we

Wanna make the best of it now

At least for the sake of memory

We may not last forever

And forever is too long

Your reminiscence is embossed

It will always stay

Its the best that ever happened and never may

Selfish I am,I wanna cling on for long

Forget it now

Hold my hand tighter,hold it strong