Tag: fear
Submission
Searching, on the run
I’m running in my shadows
Trying to find myself
I’m searching highs and lows
On the way losing myself
Fear
There was no reason
But her heart felt empty
Heartbeat was frantic
Is it anxiety?
Unnecessary she knew
It existed nevertheless
The Ringing Bells
My stomach churns
I taste bile in my throat
The bells chime loud
And I feel my heart pounding
Sweat breaks from my skin
I look everywhere
For help
Finding nothing but emptiness
The ringing bells grow louder
All I want is to scream
But my voice is stuck
I can’t utter a sound
The bells are deafening
I think I can bear no more
It’s my cue
I say
Where is home?
Am I going to be home?
Soon?
I stay inside
I pass out all the time
Worried about nothing
Consummating the darkness
Soaking in my dry tears
The fear is alive
Raging dead fires
Killing myself
All over again
The Little Child Within
There’s a little child inside
Trembling with fear unknown
Even terrified to raise her head
To take a peek outside
Sitting in the darkest corner
Knees pulled to her face
Hands covering her eyes
She cries in tiny sobs
Hiccuping
Stained are her cheeks
Of tears dried
She has no idea
Why it’s so dark
She has no idea
What’s happening to her
She just lies there
For eternity knows when
With questions unanswered
Wisdom beyond her reach
After all
Awful image she is
Of the child I am within
Blackout
Its total darkness
Blackness
Spread in infinity
I’m in a sea of nothing
Blinding my blinded vision
I swim in empty space of nothing
Terrified what I might meet
It’s a blackout
Null space
I’m there by myself
Blank
Dying
I shiver
Eyes are blurred
I can’t recover
My words are slurred
I fear
Losing consciousness
I near
Edge of helplessness
I think I feel pain
I feel blood draining
I cry in vain
My hope’s waning
Awakening
Sweaty palms
Shivering legs
Head bowed low
Cowering vow
Small steps
Threateningly little
She stands on stage
Raises her head
Microphone in hand
The shivers at bay
Her voice comes out clear
Booming and loud
The melody raises, falls
Beautiful in rhythm
Maybe just the start
The awakening of a millennium