I tried

I tried to be happy
I tried, trust me
I smiled
I laughed aloud
I tried, I did
I thought I numbed my pain
I turned my feelings off
I acted insane
I acted like a dork
I was goofy
I was
I grinned
I joked
At my expense
At mine, mine alone
I thought it’s true, this joy
This smile I plastered
The laughs I crackled
It hurt
It hurt to smile
It hurt to laugh
I tried, still, I did
Tears tried to make a grand entry
Saying
They were my only truest mates
Without any falseness
I could cry
Cry aloud
But afraid I was
My fear
Tears were indeed my truest pals
They were original and pure
Yet I tried
To smile
For I almost mastered
The art
Didn’t I?

My tunes

I dance to my songs

I tap to my rhythm

I move when I want

I stay when I feel

I make my own tunes

I create them, I do

Come watch if you like

Or stay out of my way

In vain

Lot’s of hard work

Dedication

Mocked in a single word

Just Don’t Give A ****!

You want to judge?

You want to preach?

Come try me

Speak all the rubbish you can

Give me all you’ve got

Trust me I’ve heard it all

Like a zillion times

Try something new

Spark some innovation

Be creative friend

Old is boring

Traditional? Seriously?

You’re not being classy

It’s trashy

My comebacks need to be upgraded

So update yourself

Your lectures add fuel to my fire

Just gets better every time

They don’t suppress me dude

They don’t

If you want to waste my precious time

Try impressing

Make yourself useful

Your stuff doesn’t change people

It makes people gag

Believe me

Just shut up

I don’t give an F

Hunger, never satisfied

Too much noise,so much commotion

Lots of disturbance,meaning I crave

Empty,sick,senseless words

Wicked imbeciles,foolish stupids

Purity and sense is all I demand

Lies and hypocrisy,deception and pride,crashing

Truth,modesty,find no space,no room

Trails of stink they leave,they go,they come

Scattering darkness,burning the light

Sparks I dream,brightness I search

Clashing,clashing,I try moving forward

To survive,a challenge,to live,a victory

Spinning Spiral

Going spirals in these twisting coils

They’re turning,swirling,on,on

Restless,unending,seemingly infinite

Turning to shades of every possible and improbable colors

Bright,dim,glittery,low,high are they

Making me anxious,ecstatic,weak,drowning

Deadly,frightening is their pace,I’m scared

Feeling hopeful,lost,weird,wanting

Doubtful if I’ll last till they end

In lightening speed they quicken

My poor self,petrified,drained,devitalized

Horrid traffic,noise in my head,thoughts in my ears

Need to stop,need to continue

Can’t take it no more!

Why should I be this?
Why should I be that?
This is my life
This is my strife
It’s by my rules I abide
It’s my track I ride
I don’t want any invasions
Or unnecessary conclusions
It’s my territory, I rule
My passion, my dream, you fool!

Never wanna be the same

I never wanna be the same

Am sick of this sickly game

Hope I’d magically lose the name

So I can escape the blame

Wish I never came

To the pit of fiery flame

I badly want to leave the fame

Of always being called the lame

Wonder I could tame the hardship and not be the same