Dragging me down

I’m trying
To reach out
To the light
But everything
Is pulling me back
Into this mire
Dragging me down

I’m not

I’m not the happiest
I’m not
I don’t have a purpose
I travel alone
Trying to melt magnets
Nothing, nobody comes close
I attract blankness
I attract nothingness

Nothingness

It’s nothingness
Nothingness is all I see

I’m home

After traveling
Hours
Days
Of waiting
Of desperation
I’m home

Whispers

I hear whispers
Calm and loud
Of my past
My glory
My fall

Just a little

A little bit of passion
And some compassion
I’ll live
I will

Alone

I’m tired
Of being alone
How long?
I ask myself
Though I know
That the answer is
“Forever”

Reason

Give me,
Give me a reason
To be
Lonely again

I thought wrong

I thought
I was unlucky
But I’m not
I found love
Again

Somehow

I’m tired of the pain
I’m tired of my pain
I’m numb
I’m cold
But I’m free somehow